Kevin

[Feb. 22nd, 2005|08:05 pm]

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I went to kingston this weekend to celebrate my mothers birthday. It was her 60th birthday, which I guess is a big thing. Lots of her close friends were there and everyone had a good time. Its good to see that my mother has so many good friends around her. That think so highly of her.

While in kingston I meet up with a friend that I meet last summer while I was staying in kingston. we ended going on a date. Which was awesome and all we did was talk. Not once did either of us find it awkward nor boring. Today she gave me a call and we somehow ended up talking for hours. She will be coming up this weekend and I have to say that I am pretty excited. It feels good to have someone like me for who I am and actually mean it. YAY

[Feb. 18th, 2005|03:17 am]

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let me impose a moral question for everyone. If your friend was held at gun point would you intervene? Lets say that the person held at gun point wasnt your friend, would you still step in and risk your life? Would you run away from the situation and not risk your life? I have been having a heated discussion about this with friend for a while and we cannot meet eye to eye. Hopefully someone can bring some clarity to this.

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Wide world of weird

[Feb. 15th, 2005|01:39 am]

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While working in the kitchen on Saturday(I think it was saturday, all the days seem to becoming one) there were 2 woman who had to move from their table to the bar(they knew they had limited time at the table so they happily chose to stay at the bar). After they leave one of the servers brings me a 5 dollar bill and tells me it was from the ladies from the bar. I have no idea why they would do this. The extent of my conversation with them was a "hello". Nothing more, nothing less. Maybe I preformed some action for them that I wasnt aware of, who knows. Yay for unknown free money with no harm to me. YAY.

On an unrelated note. My mothers birthday is coming up so I thought I would give her a picture of me in my work element.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v230/zealottk/kevpic1.jpg

I dont know if you notice but I am quite tired and my apron is also quite dirty in the pic. Hopefully my photo program can fix that :)

(no subject)	[Feb. 7th, 2005\|03:25 pm]
On friday I did my very first serving shift all by my lonesome. Which I think is amazing considering I have only done about a handful of backup serving shifts. We only had 1 reservation in the books but it soon turned into a full restaurant. I would have to say that I did a good job, not perfect but still good. I can't wait until next Friday. working in the kitchen is so much different then working as a server. But they are both so much fun. I never thought that I would find a profession that I would like to do everyday. In about week it will be the 6th aniversary of my fathers death. It is funny that no matter how many days pass it still seems like it just happened. But with every new day comes better acceptance of it. It doesn't make me as sad but makes me happier. Happier because the thoughts of him will never fade and with knowing that I know that he will always be alive in my heart. I still miss him though.
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[Feb. 1st, 2005|10:35 am]

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I finnally caved in and checked out the classmates web site. If you dont know what it is, it is a website that lists people that have gone to your high school. While looking at the list and remembering a few people on the list(most of them I consider to be puebesent morons) I find this

Popular, Kevin? See how many people have checked out your Profile.

what are they trying to do to people? Try and bring that lovely feeling of being ridicuild and feeling like you are next to nothing. It pisses me off with the whole "Class" mentality. The jocks, preps, elites or what ever you called them. GRRR makes me MAD. I'm going to end this rant now or I will be writing for a few days. So i'm going to save everyone now and stop.

[Jan. 31st, 2005|11:16 pm]

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yesterday was one of the best days that I have had in a while. That would make sense because today was one of the crappiest. The combination of a massive head ache and a stomach cramp/pain that hurts when I do anything. Oh and I had to work as well. Luckily there was a private party in tonight and it was small. So I had to do virtually nothing. Wish I was in bed all day long though, that would have been nice. Im going to go have some soup and watch a movie. Hopefully I wont feel like this tomorrow, I hate feeling like crap.

(no subject)	[Jan. 24th, 2005\|04:34 am]
If anyone is looking for a roommate or knows someone that is looking for one please give me a shout. Both of my roommates are moving out and i'm going to try to find another place. thanks in advance.
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[Jan. 16th, 2005|11:08 pm]

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Its amazing when someone goes through the same "events" as you have and brings things into more perspective then before. Right now I am probably the most sound in mind and heart then I have...well, ever. The reason behind the revelations about my self are in part due to the great people that I have surrounded myself. Lets call them Mr. A and Miss M.

Work is going greater then I could have hoped for. I just got a pay raise and will probably get a MUCH larger pay raise in the next few months. Maybe then I can afford all those fun toys and beer at the same time. Working at the restaurant is probably the best job that I have had. Well that and the family biz. The family biz gives me more of a sense of accomplishment. With helping people and all. If you didn't know, my mother has her own adoption business.

I'm back to jitsu. I'm so freaking ecstatic about it too. I just have to make sure that I perfect my dives so I don't have another spectacular accident again. Knock on wood.

I'm fit, I am eating right and I love the way I look...life is great.

where is my jitsu training when I need it :)

[Jan. 10th, 2005|05:14 pm]

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[	music	\|	The Chemical Brothers:The state we're in	]

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[Dec. 28th, 2004|12:50 am]

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It has been about 5 years since Both my brothers and I got together. The last time we got together wasnt the best day of my life. This time though, it is much happier. It makes me so happy to just hang out with my 2 brothers and be rude, crude and just plain goofy. I rate this a fun and happy christmas.

On a completely unrelated note:
Its nice to know that the opposite sex still finds myself charming and handsome.

[Dec. 20th, 2004|01:11 am]

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No I havn't fallen off the face of the earth. Just my internet access. I moved into a new place up on Parkhill and Monaghan. Which is turning out to be alot better then I would ever expect. A little bit of a long walk to work, but still quite manageable.

Work at the restaurant is going FANTASTIC. I have been doing serving shifts, cooking shifts as well as my other duties. Guess I am becoming a jack of all trades. As every day goes by the head cook is giving me more responsibilities.

There are a couple of pictures that I wanted to post. Would someone be willing to help me with this endeavor?

I have also been playing my bass quite a bit lately. I would have to say that I am getting quite good at it. Holy crap do I love to play jazz and funk :)

Until next time.

[Nov. 9th, 2004|01:24 am]

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If you need to relay a message to me I would send it now. I wont have internet and I am going to be insainly busy probably next week until new years. You can email at: paintermain@yahoo.ca

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[Nov. 7th, 2004|10:02 pm]

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Well I finally found a new place. Ill be living up at Parkhill and Monaghan(sp?). Which will be interesting because It is going to be taking me atleast 35 min to get to work. Since I dont have a bike anymore(stupid stealers of bikes) and right now I cant really aford a bus pass. Ah well by the time summer comes around I should have arnorld calves. hmmm maybe I should start practicing my austrian accent? mmmmm maybe not. Ill be back.

Definition

[Nov. 4th, 2004|11:29 pm]

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I just thought that I would like to clarify a word that I have said a couple of times to about a handful of people.

Faith

Just so no one has any misunderstandings of the word I went straight to the dictionary.

Faith: 1-Allegiance to duty or a person 2-belief and trust in god 3-complete trust 4-a system of religious belief

So lets disregard numbers 2 and 4 since that is no where near what I am talking about. I think I have told I have faith in about 9 maybe 10 people in my life. There are a couple of people that read live journal that I told them this. I find that this is the ultimate sense of belief in someone that you can have. I dont take this lightly either. I think long and hard when I say this word. I dont care if these people disregard what I say now I just hope that one day they realize that there is someone out there that has faith in them. Because thats what I hope people have in me. Oh and a little TLC, I like TLC ;)

little bundles of joy

[Nov. 3rd, 2004|12:19 am]

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[	music	\|	Edwin Collins- Never met a girl like you before	]

while looking through my computer and trying to clean out the crap. I happened upon some old pics that I thought that I didnt have any more. Ya for new LJ pics :)

I slept at someones house the other night and boy does my back hurt. Stupid lumpy bed. So now I am walking around like an old man. I have had this pain in my back before and I thought that I left it behind but, alas, it is not so. Anyone want to volunteer a bit of their time for some massage therapy?

(no subject)	[Oct. 28th, 2004\|11:10 pm]
I wont be in town for my birthday tomorrow, but I am going to go out on saturday and have a few pints at the old stone. If anyone would like to drop by please feel free. I think I am going to take it easy though....or maybe not :)
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(no subject)	[Oct. 24th, 2004\|03:39 am]
At work I have been distracted. I have burned my self several times in the past 2 days. Thats not good. I havnt burned my self at work for quite a few months. I think I have been getting caught up with social issues too much yet again. I wish I could just burn them away the same way that I burn my self. HAHAHAHAHA If only it was that easy. On a side note, I saw the Spades yesterday(friday) and I would have to say that they are a quite a good band. Although they did a cover on either some 70's bad life jimi hendrix or maybe cake. I wasnt quite happy with how they didnt it. But other then that they were great. loved the performance. I feel like I am getting in that self destructive way again. I dont like it but then again I do. It hurts me but then again I get out the things that when no one is there to talk about I can get the words out with hurting my self. Oh and I wish I could have someone massage me ;) I could go for a good back rub right now, boy does my back hurt.
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life goes on

[Oct. 21st, 2004|01:50 am]

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So yesterday I finally got my self to string the guitar that my brother gave me. Its a very cheap acoustic guitar. But nice none the less. Its the very first acoustic guitar that I have ever had and the first that I have strung. I hope that nothing pops out.

Its funny that right now I am having a relapse. I start to remember things that we had together. Then I think about the other stuff and how angry it makes me. I wish some times that I can just erase all the bad thoughts. But I can't, I have to live with what has happened. I have to live with the choices that I have given to my self. I think that if i had a chance I would do the same things over again. Because without them I wouldnt be who I am today. I am so happy with who I am today. I am motivated, I am pleased with my self, I am one. All I need know is the perfect partner. Thats probably the only problem in my life right now. Finding the perfect person. Then again some people look for the whole lives and never find the right one. I hope it doesnt take that long.

You know what, I tired of feeling sorry for my self. I am tired trying to heal. Fuck this. Fuck her and all her issues. FUCK everything, I'm going to live my life the way I want to. Screw being the hurt little lamb to the slaughter. I am kevin hear me ROAR.